Forbidden secrets of a girl untold

2008-11-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

Although I'm using another blog, I find it hard to delete every blog I abandon as it seems like I'm deleting away my memories, my thoughts, my emotions, everything. I know there are some things I cling on to and my random typings are one of them. Well then...

2008-10-18T07:47:00.001+08:00

My beliefs are not yours.
Your beliefs are different from mine.
Hell, I don't even know why I still keep this blog

2008-09-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

Retail theraphy people!!! That's what perks up your day!!

2008-09-16T23:40:00.001+08:00

WHEEE~!!! In another one of my crazy moods! Ahahaha.

Promos are over and I don't want to even think of the outcome. Shall let loose and make kuih raya! Whee~!

Love Story - Taylor Swift

2008-09-14T18:03:00.002+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, let's leave this town for a little while
Oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me they're tryna tell me how to feel
this love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I'll keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

~~~

I love this song. If you know me well enough, you'll know it is because it reminds me of all my historical romance novels. All the courtship, ballgowns, dances and most importantly the love story. I swear I love every single one of Taylor Swift's songs and I can't wait until her album 'Fearless' comes out soon. =DD

2008-09-06T10:01:00.001+08:00

ITs coming nearer and nearer and the less bothered I am about it. I wonder whats going on...

rest of post moved to

http://nomorepretense.blogspot.com/

My 100th post!!

2008-08-23T13:46:00.002+08:00

THE RULES:
» Pick your birth month.
» Italic and underline anything that doesn’t apply to you.
» Bold and maximize the five-ten that best apply to you.
» Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months under an mp-cut.
» Tag 5 (five) people from your friends list.

JANUARY:

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:

Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:

Stubborn and hard-hearted.Strong- willed and highly motivated.Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic(left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical.Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active Mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:

Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:

Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hardhearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

» The five tagged:
YOU! If you're reading this, I wanna see the results of what you think of yourself. =))

2008-08-22T20:43:00.003+08:00

I think my Dad is very cute. Just a while ago he was like " Do you think that Downtown East is crowded?" Then he answered the question himself by saying how it was a Friday night and all. Then he said " Got alot of manjens." I was like wth! Haha. And the next part of the convo is not to be mentioned for its racist comments. Censorship. This is one of the reasons.

Oh and my mom just got herself another portable dvd player after giving her other one to my grandmother. And she took out my Goong (Princess Hours) dvd and started watching to 'supposedly' test it out. Guess what? She's still in front of the screen. Haha.

FRED FRED FRED! SEASON 2!

2008-08-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

lil cutie petutie

2008-08-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

2008-08-18T18:13:00.001+08:00

I think I will half abandon this blog for a while. Too many things. Using my other blog.

How I wish I could destroy all the badthings in the world but I can't

2008-08-15T21:58:00.003+08:00

My grandfather just got re-warded at SGH again. As my worry grows, I don't want to think negatively. I hate my pessimistic and cynical mind!

We all live in a dream world with butterflies, bunnies and daisies. With fluffy clouds and rainbows.

Yeah RIGHT. Wake up!

WARNING!

2008-08-15T00:10:00.004+08:00

You know, you could have asked for it politely. "Fatimah, could I have some money?" But NO! You decide to take it withOUT asking. And that tantamounts to stealing woman! ASK! I'm sick of you just stealing.
And worse still, to LIE blatantly at my bloody fucking face as if I'm some dumbass when you took it when you thought my back was turned. Eh, common. There was a bloody fucking mirror on our vanity so I could see CLEARLY what YOU were doing behind me. I don't like it. In fact I hate it. And I thought you would have matured and stop doing this over the years but NO! I have to deal with it every single time because when I tell Ayah, he goes that its my fault for leaving my valuables out in the open.
But please ah, c'mon. Where's YOUR INTEGRITY? Do you want me to be an Isa and start maki hamun-ing you? I swear its not funny anymore now that we're OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WHAT IS RIGHT AND WRONG!
I know you think I have a lot as I offer out tuition but no. I haven't got paid yet. You know I don't like losing my things. You know how upset, frustrated, emotional and crazy I can get when it happens. Its like a whole different person. You know and you still do it. Are you jealous? Ayah once told me to ignore all that you did because he said you were. Seriously, get a life and stop distubing mine. I hate this.

It really hurt me deeeply what you did.

BLANK

2008-08-14T19:55:00.003+08:00

I realise that lately most of my blogpost are mainly pictures or videos. Well, maybe for this one post I won't. Maybe cos I still have the pics from the KL trip to upload.
In this blog entry I won't screen my words but write whatever thought which pops in my mind.
I'm really tired nowdays and I know why. Its the bad sleeping habits which are now getting to me. I'll sleep and then wake up at random times at night and the stupid thing is that I'll remember all the times because the stupid clock is always in my face mocking me whenever I wake up. Like it knows I am going to wake up so it glares at me from its superior position on the wall. Grrr.
Lost. Weird. Tired. Sometimes I drift off in my thoughts and find myself nowhere. And then come back to reality all fazed and unsure what is going on around me and just wait for everything to pass. I don't even want to say anything at times because sometimes not speaking is the most relaxing thing in the world as you just sit back and watch everything else. Its like you're a spectator to all those things whizzing past and sometimes you can make it out and sometimes you just let it slide.
And leave it hanging, like an incomplete story. One where the end is never found.
I think I'm just bored with everything already.

The 7 things I HATE about you!

2008-08-05T12:01:00.001+08:00

Miley Cyrus - 7 things

And her new album is out! Shall try and download it soon. =))

2008-08-02T17:57:00.004+08:00

I love this Season's So You Think You Can Dance. I swear, the new choreography is sick and out of this world. One of my personal faves is this one by Sonya.

Word vomit. It happens to us all. I'm sorry if whatever I told you made you feel...

This is Asri. I swear he is much more cuter and adorable in real life. He likes to come up to me and hugg me! Ahh, and did I mention he cute. This is the reasons why I even bother going to Huda on Saturday to help my mother teach KidsAlive.

Today my bro was being a brat in the morning. No, an ass. He was making fun of me!! But nevermind, I'll get back at him. Grrr. Say I got nothing summore...

2008-08-02T00:49:00.002+08:00

I GOT MY WALLET BACK! I GOT MY WALLET BACK! WOOHOO! OHH YEAH! (happy dance across the room)

2008-07-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

My sister showed me this cool vid! I like its dark twistedness and bittersweet ending. But the typical hero-needs-to-die-to-save-the-rest kinda thing.

I like his work. I've seen a couple of his animations so far and its good.

2008-07-31T04:06:00.006+08:00

Let pics do the talking.

Its 4 am in the morning and I'm still sick with the flu. Not as bad as yesterday but still... Ah well.
Met Kirin yesterday at AJC! Zomggg, miss ya mann. And yes, we are going to take our SGCs together cos I won't betray my promise to all of you. And I never got to take a pic with you. Ahh! Because of that, I'll post an old pic

And the four of us

I know all of us are to busy nowdays with our own things and we hardly have time to meet up and all, but when we do, we have loads of fun!
Kirin, remember your birthday's coming up...

And look at the pic above! I got no food baby!!! Whats with all the talk of my food baby now? Gahh. Ugly lil thing. Ok, I know I have one and I shall try to eat moderately now and try to not be as lazy as I am now

2008-07-30T19:47:00.002+08:00

GAHHHHH! Hate today.

I lost my wallet! Again! F#@$%G#$*C#@$!
And the irony is that I had found a wallet earlier in the day and gave it to the General Office.
And mine, is lost. Gahhhh.
I think I left it either on the bus or at AJC itself.

And on top of today, I was sick. Like ah-choo, ah-choo sick.
Should have not gone to school, then all this nonsense would not have had happened.
And I would have my wallet so I can go shopping.
But no, had to go to school, lose my wallet (3rd time this year. My mom is gonna freak again...)
Damn, and the shopping trip at KL is still hanging. Gahhh.

2008-07-24T01:29:00.002+08:00

Road Runnnn!! Ran 3 km people! But had a stitch towards the end. Ouch!
Marissa is always ever ready to pose for the camera.
And Fi joined in the picture.
Followed by Khai.

Ahahaha. We all also went to eat after that at Kfc kallang, where a lot of my secondary sch memories were.. but I received an urgent call and had to leave to clear and settle a few things.

2008-07-24T00:21:00.007+08:00

I realised something. I never did blog about my birthday!! But I'm too lazy to type so let pics do the talking.

Firstly, it started off with my three best friends surprising me with cake under my block, oh well, they wanted to ah but it was raining so it wasn't really my block but around the area ah.

Oh well, I haven't got the pics of the cake from Kirin yet so I only have the pic we took after gorging down of the cake.

Then came madrasah classes at Huda with 'family'!! I have to thank Faruq and Aishah for the slabs of CAKEE!!

2008-07-23T04:35:00.003+08:00

Its the wee hours of the morning and I know people would still be asleep but here I am blogging.
But it'll only be one line.

It shall end here, no more.

2008-07-16T05:28:00.003+08:00

I often wonder what the world would be without you hanging over my head.

2008-07-15T01:25:00.003+08:00

The only reason I'm blogging now is cos I can't sleep. And I'm wide awake.

And now as I sit on front of the glaring screen staring at my sick and tired but oddly NOT SLEEPY self, I wonder, what to blog about? My day? Life? Random happenings?

But I don't really feel like any of those fake, superficial and empty things at the moment.

Sometimes I feel like I'm going to drift away
Get dragged by the winds to a place far away.
And get lost, never finding my way back.
And as I turn back, remembering my purpose,
I scramble to find the beginning.
But its lost and I know it.

And as time passes, it gets worse
and I know it does
as I watch haplessly as it deteriorates.
And the web spun get more intricate and complex.
Its hard to decipher now as it entraps me.
And now I sit and wonder,
what exactly is my purpose?

2008-07-12T22:03:00.002+08:00

Shall be on hiatus until after promos. But I shall blog now and then when the mood strikes. Now I just sleepy. Just came back from The Iskandar's household to have a small celebration. =) I got Mango cake. :))

2008-07-05T21:34:00.001+08:00

I think my problem is that I know too much and I hide that I know it much more. Gah.

2008-07-05T05:47:00.002+08:00

I hate the fact that you lied to me and brushed it off like it was nothing. Then when I turned around you gave the lie differently to another. For all the years and this. I had a lot of people who did what you did in my life. And I can truthfully say that its pathetic. Its pathetically SICK. So sick to a point where I seem to pity you more than think of you as a friend. Pity you because you lack the confidence in yourself. And to think that once I had thought you had taught me it but now its all a lie...

2008-07-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

My less sugar diet is NOT GOING WELL! Gahhh. I should just give up and heck care about all that talk of a healthy lifestyle. Its just stupid. Hell, who cares if I feed my sweet tooth, maybe teeth, too much. Who cares about diabetes. Live life man! Eat what you want. Heyy, I'm still young... right?

2008-07-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

tired.

2008-06-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY

It only takes a Farah to ruin a Fatimah innovation.

Farah, if you're reading this, if you ever do, HAHAHA. I will never shuddap about this, it was too funny.

I am going to talk about the crazy people I love that I hang around with on sundays.

I swear I love Sundays for the craziness that comes along with it. Although most of it is spent at Huda the whole day, sometimes its just worth it. The rush, the fuss, the noise, the mess - all of it! That and most of the people I consider family are there, whether they are my actual family or my Huda family; they are all the people I classify under family.

So in the morning, like before 7 my father told me I had to cover for Cik Mas for the day and I was like =O more work to do... but then my next thought was very typical Fatimah. MORE $$$. Ahaha. I swear, I can be very money minded around my father. Strangely, its only him who I'm not shy to demand money from. I figure might as well get money the 'halal' way instead of getting it by 'haram' means which justs...

Covering for Cik Mas acually is a very tiring job, just that people overlook it as it seems so easy to just be outside the classroom and not teaching the kids. But actually, I think I sweated more that day than the other times I just do my work normally. But there was my 'minions' to help me do my job well. Minions...some minions, cos some are too lazy to do much but sit at the front desk where I was supposed to be stationed at! But others were hard at work photocopying. =))

I shall not lie. I wanted to run away for the afternoon classes but I had to stay for awhile to cover the fees to be paid by the afternoon session students, which is one of the things Cik Mas does, but I was damn prepared to run out as soonn as it was over.

But lo and behold, a sight that had not greeted me in quite a long time caused me to pause and stay even longer to see what was going to happen next. I admit, my first thought was, what the hell is he doing here? But that was soon followed by a Oh, dah insaf mungkin dan nak cari ilmu. And that thought was short lived when I saw his cigarette case in his file.

And class with the weird teacher was just... weird. Faruq made an observation that he might just be intimadated by us being Director kids and all but it can't be that. I think, he's just not use to OUR weirdness. Or maybe he doesn't get our jokes as they are quite inside jokes as we all known each other for too long. Too long until they can make ignore my childishness at times.

Which make me come to the point where I have to say, I'm NOT that big of a bimbo. I know I might have my moments but I am so not a bimbo. Seriously.

And what is up with Tamim getting on my case. Are all VS guys that irritating. I mean seriously. Seriously. Get A LIFE!

Okay, thats over. So after that Mariam, Aishah and I went to Giant/IKEA to shop/eat/have fun! I love these Giant trips with my sister. They are so fun at times.

I swear, this is the third time I went to Giant, saw the Disney Princess nightgowns and did NOT buy it. AGAIN. Gahhh. But I wanted the blue-green/gold Ariel one. Then I saw the really nice blue Jasmine one. And then I had to see the pink Sleeping Beauty one. You might think, what am I doing wanting small children's clothing but guess what? Its not for small kids but for grown people like me who can't let go of their childshness. Its next to the slippers section so I had to glance at it.

2008-06-29T00:57:00.004+08:00

Arghhhhh! Horrible to the maxxxx!!!! My computer has some kind of virus thingy and cannot function properly. Can't even on the bloody thing properly. I'm now using my sister's comp. Damn annoying!

Some days just suck and today's one of those days. But I learned to find joy in your sorrows and happiness in the grief.

And my joy/happines came in this:
I found out that there was a new series from Katie MacAlister for the Silver Dragons!!! AHHHHHH!!!! I want! I want! ( dances around the room for a while) Katie MacAlister is one of my FAVORITE authors!! I wanted to buy the whole Aisling Grey series but I read all except for the lastest one 'Holy Smokes' cos I CAN NEVER FIND IT ANYWHERE! Seriously, it was out for quite sometime already. Where is it on the shelves in Singapore?!?! No where. Oh well, I guess I had only checked once in Kino but that was like LAST year.

And the only reason I found out about her new series is because I started to read again!! Haha, I mean, I read ah but not for my own leisure type of thing. I read 3 novels over friday and sat, just bought 2 from the expo book sale and one from the library. I have to thank Khai and Shahidah for this cos they were with me when we went to the library followed by the expo for the book sale. hehehe. And I have to say that the books there were quite reasonable but youu really have to search for the good ones. And Idah was good at this, I swear she sees things we don't. We'll like pass rows of books finding nothing interesting but she would start to pull out the really good books from in between.

THE JOHN LITTLE WAREHOUSE SALE IS ONGOING!! I WANT TO GO!!!
I'm sorry but the only reason why I go to this sales is for the shoes! I mean, which girl doesn't love her shoes?

So You Think You Can Dance Season 4 is like WOW! I swear, I'm like some psyho woman when I'm watching the new episodes each week. I'll be like 'Noooo!! He's too cute to have no charater' or ' Ahhhh!! Super cool! That was hottt!!' But this week's episode was the worst!!
I really really thought that Comfort and Matt were going home cos I saw them standing individually with Cat at the start of the vid on youtube and I was like almost going to break down and howl out to the night ' Noooooooooooooooooooo~!' ( ok a bit dramatic, its the indian blood, i swear). Matt is like cool cos he wears a ninja mask and ninjas are cool!! And Comfort is just.... wow. But in the end it was Chris and Chelsea. Hah, didn't like them much anyways.
But I like almost every bloody dancer there is there cos they are all damned good this year. Seriously but I can say my favorite couple has to be Joshua and Katee! They are so cute! And I love the Katee's akward dance! LMAO!

Okay, I think I'm a bit off my rocker cos I hadn't had any Mango Soda from sweeTalk today. Usually I have two a day the very least. But I'm trying to cut back on my sugar. My mom says it'll cause me to be dumber, less sharp and forgetful. That and I'll get frequent headaches. Maybe thats the cause for my sudden headaches!! Hm, and family history for diabites is freaking scary. I want to die of natural causes thank you.

I admit, I decided to continue watching Gossip Girl. And I kinda liked it. You know you love me...xoxo Hehe. I gotta admit, its kinda cool. The 'Good Morning Upper East Siders' thing and all. Maybe its cos I love Kirsten Bell who's the voice for Gossip Girl but although the story is WAYY off track from the book, its okay.

So, I know you love me. xoxo
'Perasan' Gossip Girl ( in mysterious sexy whisper)

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Zomg, I realised tmr is Sunday! Madrasah homework is not done!! Arghh! Especially for the new weird teacher who keeps on repeating the phrase 'human dynamics' like he just learnt the phrase on that day itself. I was right about him. Weirdo. But whatever, he's Kak Marlina's fiance so he might be okay within time. I guess.

2008-06-26T23:04:00.004+08:00

Unlocked my blog. I think its pointless. I still screen my words even though its a private blog.

Okay so moving on... Omg! I hear Fred!! My sister is watching Fred on her computer. For those who don't know about Fred yet, look him up on YouTube. He's one of the more popular comedians. And he's bloody amusing!! I think I shall post his latest vid here.

Hahaha. But my favorite is Fred stalks Judy. I loved when he got sassy during photoshoot time! i swear, I've been watching to many videos on youtube and stuff. But its hilariously entertaining. But seriously, more than usual. Must be all the So You Think You can Dance Season 4 episodes there. Oh yah, if you want to watch the latest season of sytycd which is ongoing in America, look for the youtuber 'cdplaya3'. Its all there from episode 1.

Omg, I just got reacquainted with my old love for Hindi movies! But its all the relatively old ones like those in the 2000-2006 era. Then I stopped watching it cos all their values got screwed up. i mean seriously, look at Kahbi Alvida Naa Kehna. I hated it. What happened to movies like Kahbi Khusi Khabi Gham which means Sometimes Happy Sometimes Sad? I mean, this movie tells about the love of a family. Karan Johar even said that he made the movie to reflect on the love for one's parents. Oh and most of the songs on my playlist are hindi songs. again. I swear, its just a phase, it happened before.

And my sister convinced me to watch the movie 21 and I loved it! Especially cos the lead actor was hot, in a geeky smart way. Its about 6 MIT students who get trained to be experts in card counting and take it to Vegas and win bigg. Based on a true story though. Its cool.

Ahaha! And my Birthday is coming up!! My sister asked me the other day what I wanted this year. I think this year I shall make up a wish list. Just for the heck of it. Hey, I'm just bored.

And I have a conclusion to the random headaches I've been getting. I think its my pulling away from my sugar addiction. And it ebbs away once I get my Mango Soda. Hehe. =D

2008-06-25T19:03:00.001+08:00

I swear, my head is going to split anytime now. Major headache to the maxx....ggrrrrrrrrr

2008-06-16T02:16:00.001+08:00

I think I am now hit by the I'm-too-lazy-to-blog-again syndrome. I want to write but lazy. Omg, Laziness runs deep!

2008-06-14T03:08:00.002+08:00

1. What Time is it now?
2.40 am

2. What is your full name?
Siti Fatimah Bte Abdul Hakeem

3. Single or taken?
Single and proud of it!

4. What does your name mean?
Hmm, I shall ask my father after this..

5. Who picked out your name?
My parents. Actually it was either Fatimah or Khatijah. Thank God it was Fatimah. I don't know how it will be with my name as Khatijah. *tries to imagine this* Cannot ahh.

6. What's your nickname?
Fatims, Fatt, Fathz and one I'm not proud of, Kelly. (ask me if you want to know of the story behind it and those who know, pls stop snickering under your breath. I can hear you!)

7. What colour are your eyes?
A mysterious shade of violet. Yeah I wish! Black ahh, typical Asian..

8. Do you have an innie or an outie?
What type are you asking about? I hope its the belly button one. If it is, then I have an innie.

9. What size are your shoes?
Hmm, lemme check. Although I know its the same with all my sisters..

10. How tall (or short) are you?
Seriously, its a VERY sensitive issue.

11. Honestly what do you like about yourself?
I like my hair. What I was honest! But on the good days.

12. What do you always get complimented on?
My hair..Its very thick.

13. What is your worst quality?
My inner meanie.

15. Do you think you're cute?
Absolutely! Have confidence in yourself people!

16. Hair colour?
Silky smooth black wavy hair. I was going to spout out an excerpt from Seniman Bujang Lapok but I'll spare the drama.

17. Do you wear contacts?
No! Haha, don't need them. But I always wanted to get coloured ones. Just waiting for cash to roll in. Broke ah nowdays..

18. Living Arrangements?
With parents, duhh. I'm only seventeen. Well, not yet but soon.

FAVOURITES
19. Favourite drink?
Mountain Dew. Anything sweet. =)

20. Favourite alcoholic Drink?
Teetotaler. Its not permissible in my religion to consume alcoholic beverages.

21. Favourite Month?
December

22. Favourite Food?
Fruit, mango. Food, quite a lot...

23. Favourite Board Game?
MONOPOLY. A lot of memories..

24. Favourite Web Site?
haha. this one??

25. Favourite Clothing Brand?
Alano

26. Favourite day of the Year?
20th July. Heh heh. Get me something nice.

27. Favourite colour?
Light purple, baby blue and pink. Mostly pastel colours.

28. Favourite Animal?
Kittens.

29. Do you have more girl or boy friends?
Girlllsssssssss. Duhhhh.

30. Who's your bestfriend?
Got quite a few. Who shall be it this year.. I shall hold interviews for one soon then..

31. Are your parents together?
Duhhh. And act like they were just married almost every day. Annoying.

32. How often do you get together with the family?
Too often for comfort. They're too nosy to get rid of.

33. Do you tell your parents or your friends more?
Can I say I keep most to myself. But friends more I guess.

34. Anything special about your parents?
They can stand my weirdness at times, oh and annoying moments too. And they diss me back most of the time.

YES OR NO!?
35. You're a flirt?
Hope not. I don't flirt.

36. You're slutty?
No.

37. You're mean?
No, I'm an innocent little angel! *GASP!* HAHA. My mom said I was a mean kid when I was 3. And some things don't disappear easily

38. You like someone?
Like as in crush like? No, just got over it. Finally.

39. You can keep secrets?
Yes. A lot. Nuff said.

40. You dance in front of the mirror?
Hello? Dancer? What is the purpose of having mirrors in a dance studio?? You need to look and concentrate on how you move and a mirror helps to spot you're mistake.

41. You smart?
I like to think so.

42. You sing in the shower?
Yes, and my sister will shout at me from outside to shut up. But then later when I come out she'll be humming the song I was singing.

43. You liked Britney Spears?
There was a time...

44. You've liked a cousin?
Eww no! Heard of kissing cousins and Jude the Obscure. He was obscure for a reason. And most of my cousins are girls..

45. You've been in the opposite sexes bathroom?
Duhh, I was curious. Used it too. What? I was too lazy to go to the female one, it was further.

46. You've seriously hurt someone close to you emotionally?
Yes.

47. You swear?
I try not too. It reminds me of things..

48. You get your way?
I'd like to. Mostly yes I guess.

49. You're willing to try new things?
Hey, you'll never know unless you try and life is short.

50. You've cheated on a test?
YES!! Haha, who hasn't? I'm being honest here.

52. What are you wearing?
My dress of a nightgown.

53. What colour are your pants?
My DRESS is brown.

54. What are you listening to?
Haha, it just changed from Jalan Cinta by Sherina to Extraordinary by Liz Phair

55. How are you feeling?
Mixed emotions.

56. What are you doing?
OMG, The dumbest qtn yet!! This quiz ah, doink!!

57. What are you eating?
I was eating mango just now..

58. How many people are online?
Must I count? Lazy ahh, I divide my contacts to groups so yeahh.

59. How's the weather?
Hott. Even though its at night or maybe its just me. xD

60. What's on your mouse pad?
Nothing, air I guess.

61. What are you reading?
Whats written on this screen but lately nothing. I do have my lit text to finish though but I haven't picked it up for more than a month, maybe two. But I want to read again, all the novels I used to borrow...too bad I have alot of fines...

GIRLS ONLY.
62. What perfume do you use?
Lovillea fruity floral.

63. What's in your purse?
My perfume, money pouch, Nivea caregloss, handphone, earphones and strangely, a Disney Princess stationary set.

64. Thong or regular panties?
I like pretty panties. Thongs are just annoying.

65. Tall or short boys?
I have something against tall people.

66. Blonde or brunette guys?
No particular preference.

67. Good or bad boy?
HAHA.

68. Boxers showing?
Thats just disgusting. But sometimes you can see them especially when they are wearing uniforms. Its quite translucent.

69. Long hair or short hair on boys?
Short. I'll want to cut it off if its long. It gets annoying.

70. What do you find annoying in a guy?
The fact that they can't get me at times.

71. What's the first thing you notice about guys?
it takes a lot for me to notice you and I don't look at looks. Personality and character. Seriously, I won't remember you if you don't leave a good impression on me.

GUYS ONLY

72.What kind of cologne do you use?
73. What's in your pockets?
74. Boxers or briefs?
75. Blonde or brunette girls?
76. Tall or short girls?
77. Piercings on girls?
78. Long or short hair on girls?
79. Good or bad girl?
80. What do you find annoying in girls?
81.What 's the first thing you notice about girls?

OTHER QNS.
82. What was the last movie you saw in the cinema?
Ayat-ayat Cinta!!!! Loved it!!

83. What did you have for dinner?
Mom's chicken curry. I think I'm getting sick of it... two days in a row

84. What are you hoping for?
For a good life. Wait, just serve me tomatoes and mashed potatoes, give me the simple life...

85. Have you ever fallen asleep in school?
Can I say no? But that will be lying. I kinda have a rep for sleeping in class since wayyy back.

86. What movie do you really want to see?
HSM 3 : Senior Year/Graduation!!! And Miss Pettigrew Live For A Day. Its not yet out yet but its going to starr Amy Adams and Lee Pace.

87. Tell us about those scars?
Figurative speaking or literal?

88. What is your locker combo?
Tarzan swinging. Those who dunno, go figure.

89. Where is your favourite place to travel?
Anywhere with great shopping deals.

90. You last dream about?
I forgot but my dreams are weird. I know. eg. I once had a dream I went fishing with Elmo. And I have never went fishing in my entire life.

91. What was the last thing you ate?
Mango slices which were soaked in tea

92. If you were a crayon what colour would you be?
White. Its hardly used so I'll stay clean and in shape, no broken crayon bits.

93. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My sister who called while I was doing this quiz. She used her friend's phone and was desperately trying to get in contact with my father.

95. Ever had a crush on a teacher?
HAHAHA. Shahidah scribbled it all over my Chem tutorial. And its not a crush, just think he's cute in a geeky way.

96. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Nahh. If I want something, I'll go for it. But now I want noone but myself.

97. Scary movies or happy ending?
Happy endings. But sad endings are good too. Ever watched Hindi movies? I'm a fan.=D

98. Summer or winter?
Summer. I like soaking in the sunshine at times

99. Relationships or one night stands?
With STDs going around?!? Relationships

100. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla. French Vanilla would be even better.

101. What did you do last night?
What do you think I was doing huh??

2008-06-13T17:04:00.002+08:00

I swear I have never thought that Jesse McCartney was hot and always thought of him as one of 'em pretty boys but nuh-uh for this video. Super drool-worthy and... (fill in the blanks people!)

2008-06-13T16:57:00.002+08:00

I know whats happening and it has happened before. It happens at the same time each year. I don't know why it happens but it does. Actually, I do know why. Its just a phase and it will move on. I hope. I wish it were easy to get over so many things from the past.

2008-06-13T09:04:00.003+08:00

Okay, stupid quizzes. Lets go!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag some people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

* * * * *

The person who tagged me to do this is none other than my cutie-pie Farah. =D

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Umm, "Omg! I sooo hate you. Wait, WHY?"

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be a Disney Princess, duhhh. Remember, a dream is a wish the heart makes, when you're fast asleep. (from Cinderella)

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
Like the one in Ayat-ayat Cinta. AHHH!! On water, with rose petals thrown from above. *melts* I'm a big sap and romantic at heart but I hide this well. =D

#4 Are you hungry?
Duhh, the only times I'm not is like...rarely. Or during my red monster weeks.

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?
Ideal? No such thing. Its a myth. I believe in going with your feelings. There is no such thing as having a type, you're just limiting your own options. If you love someone, you love someone. We'll press out the kinks later. XD

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone? As in one-sided love or what? One-sided love can be very pathetic. However, if you're loved but by the wrong and creepy people, thats scary. Can I say, its relative?

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Waiting is not a problem. But like I said, if its one-sided and you wait for years and years, thats pathetic. I'll wait if I know he's THE One.

#8 If the person you secretly like (if there isn't one, just imagine) is already attached, what would you do?
I don't go for attached guys, thats just against my principals. Seriously, get over it, a lot of other fish out there.

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
I don't like to talk about my dark feelings. I like keeping them inside. One should not bother others with your problems.

#10 Is there anything that has made you happy these days?
Yes!! Mangoes, milkshakes, lizards and me!

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
I'll be 27... hopefully, married. I don't want to be a spinster. Its my greatest fear.

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
ME!

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Love her to bits, she's like my long lost NICER sister than my crazy delusional one. Don't underestimate this girl, she has her talents. I bully you a lot girl but I love ya okay.

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
My fantasy life would be one of decadence and sin. Figure this one out.

#15 What’s the first thing you do every morning?
The essentials, then do laundry if I don't have school. One thing abt me that a lot of you all already know is that I like the smell of fresh laundry.

#16 Would you give all in a relationship?
Give it all?? What all? Nuh-uh, whats mine is mine.

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Mann, I'm not that much of a fickle. Seriously, this won't happen to me I'm very faithful. If I like a guy, its only one person. No one else.

#18 Would you rather be friend with a geek who is a really nice guy or a super hawt dude but really isnt that nice to you(treats you badly as a friend, etc)?
Nicer geek, seriously I have had enough of friends who treat me badly. And I can make the geek become a little cooler, meaner -probably- and change him to become a cooler guy. And there's something abt geeks...

#19 What are your friends usually like?
Weird, cool, funny, fun people mostly. I mean look at me! XD

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
This is easy, back stabbers. Thats because, I'll hold grudges longer against these people and they bring out my inner bitch.

The eight people that I have drag down together to do the quiz are:
NO ONE!
Seriously, people if you want to do it, go ahead.
I don't believe in forcing someone. I did this quiz not only because I was tagged but because I wanted to have funn answering random qtns. I wouldn't have done it it I didn't want to.

2008-06-12T15:56:00.002+08:00

Today is a good day, well, better than most days at least. It all started with the pleasant surprise of mangoes when I came back from Maths class all thanks to my father who said he had me in mind when he bought it. awwww!!

Next is the revival of my baby, the thinkpad. Yes, I managed to finally get my baby up and running after countless of days and weeks when it has been down and out. Ahhh, lovee!

2008-06-11T10:35:00.002+08:00

Today was a good morning to sleep in, and I did. Well, I usually don't seeing how I wake up early to do my morning prayers and today I can't so...

Okay, so I woke up and walked into the living room and I saw something that made me squeal in delight! There was a small lizard on the floor!!

I know you're probably thinking ewww and germs but if you know me well and long enough, you'll know I have a fascination for lizards, especially the small baby ones because they are so cute! Which is what I saw on the floor this morning. Hehe.

I picked it up. Yes, I managed to catch it, effortlessly I might add too. cheyy.. hahas. So I played with it for five minutes before I put it at my window ledge and said to it " Go Lizard, go! Farewll, o' lizard, till we meet again!"

Don't ask me why I went all dramatic on it, I was in the mood okay.

Haha, later I might meet up with Kirin, Rika and Rahimah. I might just tell Kirin about the lil lizard and show her the pictures I took of it, let her scream and squirm a bit. That girl hates lizards, I swear. She freaked out at all the times I picked up one in those secondary school days...ahhh...I miss those times. Well, anyway, I'll see them all later.

2008-06-10T17:44:00.002+08:00

There are thick walls of glass sheilding me from the world. I just look out, merely a spectator. Or am I just imprisoned?

Tercipta untukku Ungu

2008-06-10T08:04:00.003+08:00

Tercipta Untukku - Ungu

menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
banyak katayang tak mampu kuungkapkan
kepada dirimu

Chorus:
aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkahyang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tauku
slalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
disetiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
kau tercipta untukku
meski waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tau
ku slalu milikmu
yang mencintaimu

2008-06-05T22:03:00.003+08:00

A weird convo with my younger sis
We were in the same room btw.
We are damn weird.

hasia says:
TODAY IS NOT A HAPPY DAY
hasia says:
TODAY IS A WIERD DAY
hasia says:
BECAUSE FATIMAH WAS HAPPY TODAY
hasia says:
WEIRD DAY
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
its weird
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
stupid
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
an't even spell
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
*can't
hasia says:
WHATEVER YOU SHIT ASS
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
ehh ehh
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
bwawawa!
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
how cruel...
hasia says:
ME, CRUEL?

hasia says:
WHAT ABOUT YOUR ASS?!?!?!
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
meanie...
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
i shall crawl back to my corner
hasia says:
EH!
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
u go to yours
hasia says:
JANGAN NAK STEP CUTE
hasia says:
MINAH
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
oohh, no!
hasia says:
TAK JADI!!!!
hasia says:
BWAHAHAHAH
hasia says:
A
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
and my hair is nice today
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
=)
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
dahh, I block u!!
.fatimah. Zomg, today is a super happy day! Smile says:
HAKAKAKAKA

2008-06-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

Please don't tell me stories about him. It hurts sometimes. You get to see him and I don't

2008-06-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

Today's a good hair day

random right

2008-06-05T19:23:00.003+08:00

I'm like super happy today!! I dunno why just am. I declair today a Love Yourself Day cos I don't wanna hear people whining about their problems today, especially me. So throw your troubles away today people and be happy with me.

Omg, today is such a good day. Started off well, hope it ends well too. Just hope it doesn't start again soon...

2008-06-02T17:36:00.002+08:00

MANIFESTASI WAS A BLAST!!

I swear, it WAS awesome!! The feeling after performing and knowing that you gave it you're all, regardless of the complications, and knowing the performance us Kayangan Lestari's as a whole did was mind-blowing was superb. However, I'm sure all the Budayas' and the actors did a superb job but I'm just being a proud member of KYL! Woots!!

2008-05-27T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hah, dunno why I'm so tired. As I'm typing this, I'm in a state of lethargy with my eyes drooping and my fingers mixing up the keys on the keyboard. Ahh, fatigue I guess will pick me up anytime now and bring me to slumberland if I don't find a way to wake myself up now. But whatever ah, it'll come when it come. Haha, that sounds wrong! Hakaka.
Today there was no tarian but that doesn't mean I should slack. Manifest is only this friday and my studies ain't no walk in the park either. Arghhh! Still had school today. Started out with Maths before waiting for 3 hrs for Econs. Dum dee dum. And had chem mass tutorial lesson...And then went out with Idah and Atiqah...shall continue it another day.

2008-05-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

Tired and drained. Just came back from tarian/Manifestasi practice. Okay, it wasn't as tiring as the usual practice as we were eating quite a lot of the time. Lols. But whatever ah, I was supposed to be in school from 9am to 9pm except for that short interval where I decided to skip lecture and go to TM. Hekekeke. There is no way I am going to sit in some cold dungeon listening to the teacher say something which is not even going to seep into my brain for two hours straight. I'll fall asleep. And I'm sure I'm not going to be the only one so I shall call these lessons a 'Mass Sleeping Session' Bahhh. But whatever, I got my Long John's I've been craving, met an old friend, bought food for the other tarianees and looked for stuff I'm going to buy- have my eye on this skirt already. See, I did more than I could in some boring ass lecture. I'm just convincing myself cos its my first time skipping lecture in JC. Haha.
And tarian was fun today, I admit it started off quite tense but who wouldn't be if we performed like that. I admit, our first rehearsal was horrible but the second one felt quite better. I'm not sure...
And now to talk about the highlight of my day! I climbed over my school gate!! Haha! How cool is that! Okays, so I had to go out to buy food for the tarianees and myself but the gates were locked as it was quite late and the security guards have gone home a long time ago so Dinah and I were left in front of the gate with nothing much to do. So we climbed it!! Hah! And I did it quite well if I must say. Well, better than Dinah X)) Only joking, no offence Dinah if you ever read this.
I swear Manifestasi is super funny!! The tarianees got a chance to watch it in the making and it was hilarious!! I swear I couldn't stop laughing!! HAHAHA! Love it!!

Pink and Purple!!

2008-05-24T18:30:00.003+08:00

Zomg, I came home from tarian followed by Kids ALive today and to my utter amazement, my block has been painted pink and purple!!! *Screams* AHHHHH!!! LOVIN' IT!!! Omg, my two favorite colours in the world is the colour scheme of the blocks I will see outside my window. Well, that and the painters... ok nvm, moving on.
Today was the first combined practice by all the budayaS for Manifestasi. I admit, I was falling asleep but that was because I was exhausted as I slept late. My baddd. But it was interesting to watch and through my heavy-lidded eyes I found the whole thing quite captivating. Imagine how it would have been if my eyes were wide open and awake. !!! Now there's going to be intensive Manifest training until the big day itself. Mannn, can't wait for it. Must practice man, tickets are more than sold out. 800+ people! Its scary but the show must go on.
I decided to celebrate my little accomplishment of being able to get through two major papers by watching 'Bukan Bintang Biasa'. Ok, I watched it on Youtube, so what. It was clear and of good quality. That and Raffi Ahmad is super cute!! *grinnsss*
I think I'm going insane, don't you? Nahh, just extremely in a happy/hyper mood today. <33s!

2008-05-24T01:11:00.006+08:00

Its the start of the Holidays people!!! But I'm going to school tomorrow...

Man, that just spoilt everything. But its for Tarian so its okay. Tarian = Love. Seriously, even though its tiring, the friends we all made - its all priceless. Ewww, going all sentimental... not cool. Moving on...

Today, I had two big papers. I have to thank Heda for helping me keep sane these few days although we are no longer in the same JC. Everyone else seemed so distant then and I really love her for being there for me when I was down, she was down, everyone down. Hekeke. I realise that this whole post is going to be full of a lot of crap cos I'm very high now!

WWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~!!!!

Oh ya, my two papers today! Ahahha. KI and econs. LOL! Big screw up on both, I guess? One I can't remember what I wrote the other i wrote too little. But I'm still happy! Its all overrrrrr!!!!!!!!

ZOMG, and I made a big embarrassment of myself today. I swear, this is why I make myself seem innocent to other except for my close friends. I swear, the next time I'm gonna say something personal in the girls bathroom again, I'll check twice- no thrice- if there is anyone else. Total ass...

Aku ingin kau selalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku

I swear, I love this song! I love Ungu! They are like- one of the best bands y'll! Check out the song on my blog people. If u don't understand it nevermind . Mann, I've runn out of what to sayy or writeee. Nvm, there's always tmr =))

2008-05-22T04:19:00.005+08:00

I don't even know why I'm like this...

2008-04-15T02:26:00.002+08:00

Its all closing in on you. Breathing heavily down your neck making you squirm. The air gets thicker and you feel constraint. Do you feel the pressure now?

Time is ticking past. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. What comes next? Is it over yet?

No. It looms nearer as you crouch haplessly in your corner. Wake up and run woman. Run for your life!

The horrible week

2008-04-13T18:17:00.002+08:00

I just feel terrible, horrible like someone choking me to death while jamming thousands of needles -no- glass shards into my skull and pricking my eyes at the same time. No matter how they tell me its just an accident, I still feel horrible. I know that I was responsible for the accident. I shouldn't have been tempted to try. I should know that it wasn't the time yet. I should have just realised my place. Now two people who I love are injured because of me. Minor injuries but still... Now I'm thinking of all the money that is gong to be wasted to fix the van and the stationary car next to us...

I'm Baccckkkkkkkk!!!

2008-04-13T05:52:00.002+08:00

"AHHHH! She blogs again!" I know I haven't been blogging for a while now so people, you know who you are, please don't make a big deal over it like you did the last time. Actually, I was just getting bored with studying econs so I decided to write and get reacquainted with a skill I have seemed to get out of touch with. Its quite weird as I used to read and write a lot but nowdays you can hardly see me reading any of those books I used to read or even writing short snippets of what stories used to run through my mind. Hmm, I'm using a lot of 'used to'...
Ok whatever, life in JC is basically quite packed and with my schedule it gets worse. I reaise now that to start right from the first day was essential as now I have pile loads of topics to read up on. No more novels. *Sigh* But hey its better to start now then never. Oh and if anyone is wondering, yes, I'm still helping out with KidsAlive but now its not only on Sundays only but also Saturdays. Which is also the reason why I missed the band finals and did not make it down to support them all. Anyway, I'm sure a lot of ex-TKsians were there to give their support. I remember a lot of people asking me about it. :P
Its quite early in the morning but when else can I do anything on a weekend? I have to go out before 9 am later and only be back a little before 6pm. *Groan* Dah lah, I should go now. Get ready and all...

2007-12-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

How come Carrie Underwood gets her own Disney Animated character!?! I want one too!! Hello, I'm like the biggest Disney fan ever! I named myself after Sleeping Beauty. Fatimah Aurora. Well, not quite but still, I want to be an animated Disney character!!

2007-12-20T08:21:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everybody!!!

Wow! Its almost the end of the year and coming to the start of a new school year. Okay, relax people. First day of school is coming again soon. For me, it will be the first day in a new school with orientation to do and other stupid stuff. Well, I just hope that it will be fun at SR and I will not feel so weird in a new environment.

Argh! Who am I kidding? I hate new schools with all the adjustments and so on. Okay Fatimah, breathe and we will get through this.

However, I have my trip to Colmar at Pahang to look forward to. If there's one thing I can so get during holidays is SHOPPING!! Looking forward to that! I shall buy new shoes, clothes, bags, cds oohh and that new Nur Fazura movie I want to watch!! Whee, see you all and have a good Raya eating all the good stuff. I just can't wait to go to my grandparents house. FOOD!!

hady shocked

2007-12-20T08:03:00.001+08:00

hady shocked
Originally uploaded by fatimah.aurora

Congrats to Hady for winning Asian Idol!!!!!

By now, I know all of you must have known he has won.

Anyway, we didn't think it will happen but it did.

CONGRATS HADY!
Rock on dude!

TV shows I watch

2007-12-11T16:36:00.000+08:00

Lately, I have been watching many shows online. It all started with watching Gol and Gincu the series Season 2 on YouTube and progressed to Hannah Montana to finally other new drama series.
I think I have downloaded almost all the Hannah Montana episodes and have gone a bit Hannah Montana crazy for a while. Don’t worry I’m not anymore due to some other show which I will elaborate later but I have turned into a Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus fan due to Maraim.
From Hannah Montana I move on the the final season of Gilmore Girls which is a bit of a let down as well as interesting as Lorelai finally gets married but not to Luke, but to Chris. I for one, like Chris as he has now become the cool Dad for Rory as well as the actor who plays his character is very cute and way better looking than wrinkly faced Luke. If only Lorelai could make her marriage work.
Well, from there I got bored and started watching Ugly Betty Season 2 on Youkou. However, due to the writers’ strike there is only like 9 episodes and I’m still waiting for episode 10 which has already been aired but no one has posted it up yet. The thing I love most about Ugly Betty is that it has characters like Marc and Justin who you just have to love. Plus Marc gets a boyfriend in this second season which is very cute as the guy has a few extra pound on him and he goes “I’m an average man lover!” to Amanda when she found out. That plus Justin turns all ghetto on us for a few episodes but don’t worry, he’ll change back to his old fashionista self after a while.
OMG, have you realized how crappy and boring the fourth season of Grey’s Anatomy is and how desperate and pathetic all the characters become. I didn’t even bother to finish off the first episode. It’s quite a big let down from the previous season which was brilliant, just brilliant. However, the spin off is quite hot actually. I have to recommend people to watch Private Practice as it is just, wow! I have to admit I had hated Kate Walsh’s character in Grey’s Anatomy but she becomes quite cool and hilarious in Private Practice. It must be LA. That and her love interest is just so hot! Way more steamier and dreamier than Mcdreamy and Mcsteamy combined. I don’t blame her character of being disturbed in the third episode due to having dreams of him. The man has a lot of sex appeal. That and the sub-plots are also very entertaining.
I tried watching Gossip Girl but gave up half way through one episode. I like Blake Lively but I just can’t see her as Serena. The drama is also way off the book which even though I read it for fun and boredom, I find it way better than the series. Hello, Serena does not ever date Dan Humphrey and that little girl is Jenny. Really, very small. If I remember correctly, Jenny received attention from the guys as she was big. Well, if you have read the books, the series is a disappointment unless you are into the world of the upper east people like Blair, Serena and Nate. I on the other hand don’t and can’t be bothered to watch the lame excuse of a show.
Well finally we come to the show which has hurt me the most. Veronica Mars. The first two seasons were amazing but come the third episode, it becomes lame and starts to become terrible. The only thing which lead me to continue watching was Logan Echolls charater but once I found out that him and Veronica split up for good, I stopped watching at episode 14. And I know she ends up with another guy, Piz and the whole show starts to suck. Seriously. This is why you will see me mopping for a bit now. I am in denial about the whole season three and shall pretend it never existed. Well, it’s a good thing they cancelled the show. But I still love Kirsten Bell for being the cool, smart and sassy Veronica Mars. That’s a character I shall miss. I don’t know if they are going to continue to shoot ‘Veronica in FBI’ but I hope so and I sure as hell want it to end up as a Veronica and Logan pairing. Well, anyway, I’m over-reacting over a small matter such as this as it is not even real.

Wow! I think I shall return to reading books now instead of watching dramas. Too intense.

I'm back!

2007-12-11T07:39:00.000+08:00

Well, after a very long period of being on hiatus, I finally came back to the pathetic and beat up blog of mine. Looking at its hapless state, I had to restore it to its former glory or at least to a more acceptable state.
It’s now December and my O levels are finally over as many of you know and I have taken a job to fill up my time in the whole of December. That and also earn money for my shopping spree in KL on Dec 22 to 25. A girl needs a lot of money to spend on bags, shoes and accessories. And you can never have to many shoes.
Speaking of which, I have just bought a new pair of Antonio Coles from the John Litte Sale the other day at the Expo. I wanted these flats at first from Charles and Keith but there was none in my size. Bummer. Which is why you should always go to sales for shoes early if you are a size 38 which are always out early. And I did as I went on Tuesday, which to me is quite early.
This December is going to be a drag especially with my job working at my father’s relatively new office at Bedok Reservoir. I have to spend most of the day calling up people in the area to promote the center while also running errands. I don’t really like it but hey, if it helps me to earn extra cash, sure. No problem. Right. Like I like being hung up on and being answered back coldly.
Well, that’s all for now. All I have to do now is wait for the results of which JC I’m going to. I swear, if it’s a horrible JC, I’ll not do the first three months or now two months as it has been cut short.

2007-10-14T20:51:00.001+08:00

ELMO!!

2007-08-05T08:04:00.000+08:00

This is for my ever lovable friend Farah aka Elmo!
Elmo so reminds me of you! hehe

HOTNESS

2007-06-03T12:55:00.001+08:00

This is why I love Dance movies. They are so hot and sexy!

from Dirty Dancing Havana Nights!
AHH!!
I love this dance.

2007-05-30T20:14:00.001+08:00

I love you all. I love school, I love the holidays, I love the classes during the holidays, and most of all I love me!

Okay, I'm going a little bit crazy from being holed up here all alone.

ahhh?

2007-05-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

This sucks. It really does. Even writing doesn't help in this situation. I am at a loss of words. What is happening?

Sarang haeyo!

2007-05-12T11:50:00.000+08:00

Its a bloody holiday and I'm sick. Again. Ahhh, my immune system sucks.

MICHAEL BUBLE!!!

2007-05-05T08:46:00.000+08:00

Michael Buble is so hot!! Call him irresponsible...no more like irresistable!! I've gone Michael Buble crazy AGAIN!!

MYE!

2007-04-28T19:02:00.000+08:00

Just got back home a little while ago. I was studying at Changi Airport Terminal 2 at Mcdonalds with Jannah, Syaq and Syariff. Well, more of trying to. Literature is such a drag to study for. But I must do well, again to get some people off my backs.
I swear I will get fat by the end of the exams due to the amount of my intake of Mcdonalds food just now. Hotcakes with sausage meal for breakfast followed by golden coins. Then fries, more fries due to Syariff and coke. Jannah and I got balloons from the skinny, waif looking waiter. In the end Jannah gave hers awaybut I kept mine. :) We are all kids at heart.
Then we met Hilma, Stephy, Ryan and Zafir who were from Parkway. They were then joined by Rico. We were all studying there until a lady in red came to shoo us away. Bluek!
After that, we went to Swensens for ice-cream. Since all of us had not that much money, we pooled together all we had to pay for the Topless five ice-cream consisting of Cookies and Cream, Peanut butter chocolate buttercup, frozen malt chocolate, chocolate frizzies and sticky chocolate. Well, I think that is.
Went on that Skyrail that Jannah so excitedly wanted to ride on AGAIN. Went home. Slack. I should go and study.

OMG!

2007-04-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

WE GOT SILVER!!! OMG!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!

We improved and moved up a notch. I'm so proud of my girls and I. ahh! *grins widely to herself* *squeal* After months and months of practice finally our hard work is paid off!

A new day

2007-04-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

Well, I skipped that Social Studies Mock Exam just now. Seriously, I don't see the point in going if its not being marked. Anyways, Atikah was the one who suggested it and since I nearly slept in all my classes, I was more than agreeable with that idea. So off we went straigh after english on our way home. Seriously, even now I am still tired and sleepy.
I finally realised how badly I needed to study when Atikah scored higher than me for our AMaths test. It was half a mark but still when does she get 30.5/40 when I got 30/40. But still, I'm proud that she has worked hard and all but now that SYF is over, I will come in full force once I have recovered from my fatigue.
Tommorow, I am thinking not to come in the periods before recess and only after as I might decide to see a doctor on the condition of my ever-sore throat. But I don'twant to miss jewellery making! Well, we'll see what happens tomorrow.

Screw-up day

2007-04-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

I swear I so totally screwed up my chemistry practical and physics paper today. Firstly, I had fallen asleep in my physics paper then i could not do it since I had not read up about practical electricity much and was overcome with fatigue. Then during practical, I was so confident I had done everything well and perfectly until I realised I had made a major mistake of writing 'iron(2) sulphate' instead of what it was supposed to be 'copper (2) sulphate'. Fuck. And I finished 15 mins early and was lazing aroung looking here and there not realising this crucial and critical mistake until after I was out of the lab and was talking to Syaq. Arghh!
oops mummy nagging again.byes.

2007-04-23T19:09:00.000+08:00

It was fun, interesting and an enriching experience. I admit I started to freak out when we were at the curtains but I was fine before that. Yes, I was a bit upset at the mistakes made during the process but still it was a learning experience for me plus all that free food.

Sorry TK ppl will know what I mean but its kinda of a secret for others.

Friday 13th

2007-04-14T16:56:00.000+08:00

Was it an unlucky day? Not much. Well except for the fact I was so bloody emotional at the end of the day. Probably because I was so bloody tired to even move about plus my bloody idiotic, annoying cough which had me hacking and gagging over a week already. Back to my emotional unstability. One moment I felt like crying, the next I was hyper and jumping up and down full of energy and the next just unsure of what I was supposed to feel. It was like some bloody emotional rollercoaster. I remember whinning to Kirin about it and thus reclaiming my title as A Whiner.
Ok, so Games Carnival was so boring and an idiotic waste of time and I had found myself wistfully wishing that I hadn't come to school or left to go to the library. Man, I didn't even study in the end but wasted myself moping around in the canteen and watching Rika's floorball match which only infuriated me furthur as 4C was really annoying me especially with their standing ovations when their class won something which was usually first. It was usually 4C first and 4J second or both tied. And where is my class you may ask? No where. Well, its not our fault. We are a girl power class! Why don't they make it fair to us and do some not so rugged game for us like some Gossip game or some thing which uses or intellect or command in language as we are a class full of blue stockings (as Mrs Poon likes to incessantly repeat to our class-ahhh, annoyance). A game like the one Mrs Poon brought to class some stare and memorize or pick a letter and a topic and start to name thing fitting what you picked. That would be fun but no, have boy games like basketball and soccer which my class cannot join. But still, I think 4C will win it cause they are bloody idioticly competitive. Argh!
Well, when the worst was over, Kirin, Rahimah, Rika and I went to Singapore Post to eat at Long John Silvers. Not forgetting Nini, no I mean Aini or Aini. Hehe. Only kidding but I remember annoying her a lot with my squeals over her being so cute and so frankly Nini. But yes, she has the most adorable quirks. Before we ate she was like " Okay, lets chomp-chomp." Ahhh! Adorable I tell you! I know I might sound weird but like I give a damn. Seriously, she amuses me so much that I was not so 'emotionally unstable' after that.
Ok, I realized this from Lin and Shahidah today. I read too bloody much that it has become the first priority in my life and I have to rush each day before school to complete my unfinished or untouched homework. That's it man! I'll cease to borrow too many books, anyways with that currently MIA (missing in action) book which I don't think I'll be able to find therefore eliminating that out of my life. Man, I'll miss borrowing books.
Oh my god...I'm currently listening to 'Cosy in the Rocket' the theme song for Grey's Anatomy and it makes me feel like bouncing. "Oh oh suppose you'll never know. Nobody knows where they might end up. Nobody knows. Nobody knows when they might wake up. Nobody knows..."
Hehe...can't wait for Season 3 of Grey's Anatomy to air on Channel 5.*Grins*

Sunday Sickday

2007-01-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. And during the weekend too. It started on Friday afternoon and lasted until now. Luckily Rika was cool with me snezzing the whole way home even though we had quite a fight the day before which ended up making me cry. But not over the fight but some other problems but still, she's a good friend.
I'm quite emotional nowdays and cry so easily. Just now in madrasah class, we were talking about the punishments carried out by the Muslim law and my sister said how some poor innocent kids hanged themselves when they saw the video of the hanging of Saddam and i just cried thinking of the poor naive children who wanted to try it out. Its like the poor kids had a bright future ahead of them but it was all wasted. Then my teacher told me how they all would go to heaven because they haven't reached puberty and are still very innocent and yeah, I'm okay.
Faruq was being a faggot in class today. He poked fun and teased me a lot today. Called me 'pendek' too. One day he is going to be punished and I'll just laugh my ass off at him.
I found out he and his gf went for Temasek Polytechnic Open House which I so wanted to go but was too sick to go to. Man, i wanted to see the design and apparel course as I am quite interested in but I still am leaning more to Early Childhood Studies or an Accountng course. One of my future dream jobs would be an Accountant because the pay is good and also because I like Maths.
Well, I haven't done a single of my homework and I just pray that Monster is in a good mood as she has given us quite a lot of home work.
Oh yes, my Mp3 player is spoilt thanks to my darling brother but he is so going to pay me back!

2007-01-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

I am so bloody tired. And it was just one room which needed to be painted. Tired. Shall write later.

2007-01-02T15:30:00.000+08:00

It’s a new year and school is going to start soon. Ahhahahaha.hah. It was like I was sitting at home minding my own business and BOO! It struck that school was opening in a week’s time. Some way to start a new school year. So here I am, trying my best to finish off my homework piled up by those cold-hearted teachers who can't let us students have a decent school break. Well, my school break was quite fun actually at certain parts when I'm not cooped up at home.
Ooh! Guess what. My sis came up to me just know and she was like...
Marz: Oh, Fatimah. You know I love you right. Help me do my Maths HW.
Me: err.......
Marz: (looks at me hopefully)
Me:.....er..okay?

Sheesh, I should shut my mouth at times. Now I am stuck doing three of her holiday hw papers. And Temasek Academy has some weird qtns.

Well, that's that. I was watching 'Carmen a hiphopera or something' but my Yayi who happened to drop by finally looked up from the book he was reading and was like ' Eh, aku ingat cerita Malaysia...' so I had to change. But who cares. It wasn't that interesting anyway. Okay my homework. I haven't touched physics, lit and ss. I haven't finished chem, geog elect., e maths, a maths. I have finished nothing so far well except the first paper for geog. elect. but yeah who has ever finished doing geog elect hw.

Woohooo. Shall go and do hw now....

duh

2006-10-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

I have discovered blogging is a waste of time!

sadness or not

2006-09-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

Boring day today. I was fasting. Hmm..fourth day i have repaid my fast. Shall try to finish off the rest.

Sonata Musim Salju

Saat ku merindukan dirimu
Jiwa meronta kau ku damba
Oh gerhanalah seluruh pancaindera

Ku hilang dalam memori cinta
Membakar seluruh jiwa raga
Hanya kau untukku
Kau tiada dua

Bagaikan siang tiada mentari
Bagai malam tiada cahaya purnama
Tanpamu tiada erti hidup berdua
Ke akhir masa kau ku cinta

Bagaikan syurga tanpa bidadari
Kau ibarat hembusan nafas terakhir
Pulanglah sayang usah kau berpaling
Di sini ku pasrah menanti

Dikau bak salju ditiup bayu
Kan rebah di pangkuan bumi
Ku yakini kasih
Restu Illahi

Ku doa kau hadir
Permaisuri mahligaiku
Hidup mati cinta kita bersama

my life

2006-09-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

Judging from today, I can gauge that the holidays are gonna be pretty boring henceforth. So, I decided that since my PMS is conveiniently turning up at the right times, i.e. during holidays or weekends, that I would try not to be so emotional and moody over a certain topic. I am gonna forget it. Yes. It is time I've got over it. Okay...distract myself...talk about mundane things.
This morning I was chatting with Marleenah who so happens to be my longest friend ever. I knew her since...I dunno when. Sometimes I am shocked at how she can predict me so accurately. I haven't seen her for quite sometime...ever since last Hari Raya I think. But still we talk online and there was a time when I was frustrated over the fact that she was a cutter. I dunno if she still is but I seriously think that cutter's want attention. I konw this cos I have be-friended one and she caused a lot of trouble to my group. Depression hits all teens as we are full of angst, hatred and suffering-so we think. Hey, it happens to me too but I have good control of my emotions sometimes I can be deceiving. You see I think my emotions should be bottled up. Why you might ask? I find that when I express what I feel I get into more trouble so I too get sick and tired. Why go against the current when its easier to let it suck you in? It's not that i'm weak or anything. I'm just tired. Tired of trying. Well, they do say if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.
I guess I'm blabbering nonsense away. Sheesh. Typical.

Holidays r here

2006-09-02T09:21:00.000+08:00

Holidays are here but I feel so freakingly bored. Its like there's nothing much to do except homework and chores.
Well, today is a sunny day. Good for hanging clothes. Me thinks that my clothes outside will dry by the afternoon and be ready for me to fold. Well, the boring story of my life.
Okay, the cycle is repeating itself. I'm crying over some dumb book again. A sign that my period is coming. When I get my PMS, my moods tend to be extreme. It's usually extremely happy or hyper or sad, emotional and a tendancy to weep over small matters. Especially books. Romance ones especially. Yesterday I was reading 'Irish Born' a trilogy by Nora Roberts and I was crying over small matters. This is so not me.

Mohabbatein

2006-08-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

For all the hatred in the world
Hearts are filled with love.
Even after lovers have died,
After their beloved has perished
Their love lives on.
Forever.

-from Mohabbatein

days go on

2006-08-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

Seriously, today was a bummer. English and physics common test on the same day. What more a wet day. And a clumsy one too. Well, it was clumsy due to the fact that I had ripped my uniform at my badge area due to the fact that my badge snagged on my bag just as I was about to put it down. I heard a large rippp! before looking down in horror to see my uniform torn-koff- there-koff-! Okay, totally embarassing but yeah, luckily it was in the toilet.
Okay, English paper was a drag and I know I wrote crap.

There was a foul smell in the air; musky and pungent. I lay a pathetic heap on the cold concrete floor. Shivering from the cold of the night, I had nothing for warmth, only the clothing on my back.

Well, that was how I started and I dunno...maybe it was crap or not. But I do know that it was nonsensical.

How I feel currently:Crap tired and in dire need of slumber. I need a miricle!

2006-08-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

maybe i am in the wrong...but why should i say it?

2006-08-10T03:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, for these past few days I've been having a cough and a sore throat. Yesterday, I wole up with a really husky voice which Kirin called 'sexy' although it sounded horrible. Today, I can hardly speak. Its just too painful. Im like ' my cough lasted for a week and now this happens?!' Yes, I still have a cough but it comes now and then.
3F/K Haunted Room was a sucess although some people couldn't get in and it was a long wait. Too bad most of us did not get to go to the bazaar and we also used up more time than supposed to. But we managed to earn lots of money for charity!

wth

2006-08-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday I went to Bedok View to support Istilah sayang at this Melayu thingy. Rika, Rahimah and I came late due to the fact that we had english oral. And I had arrived late but I was supposed to be first. And ended up being second. And I seemed to go well. Seemed. Ha.
Okay, so we arrived late after eating at day and night. We arrived when they were having a break so we managed to sneak in unnoticable. Although Cikgu Azman aka Kuih Lapis (for Istilah's case) was knocking on his watch and putting it to his ear to see if it was still working. Yes, we know we were late!
So while over there I saw some RI kids and lo and behold, I saw Harris. He looked funny without specs. I admit yes Harris has grown to be quite cute but I known him for like how long thus know how terrible he looked like before. And I am also close to the sis and know some things about him from her. Strictly confidental.
TK won the competition thingy and Cikgu was jumping for joy next to me. The state she was in before they announced the results are indescibable. She was wringing my hand like mad as if her life depended on it. It was shocking thta RI got only a constilation prize.
I am so happy for Istilah and also for Farizwan. Rika, next to me, burst into tears when the results were announced. She was like ' Now cannot take picture with Fauzi Laily' as he had also came when the results were being announced. I went home alone as they all had Dance performance for National Day at the CC.
Okay, this is something that pissed me off till now. On Saturday, I had asked Harris if he were coming for Madrasah but the thing wasthe next they I didn't go cos I knew of the Tafsir test thus I did not go. And also cos I had PMS and was moping around in the morning over some things which I moon about during THAT period. So when I came online the next day, he was like 'basket,u never come' like wth?!?! And later after he put me down so much I heard that he skipped Arabic class! Like WTH! So Pissed at him. Shall get him back. Just you wait....

sick

2006-07-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

Okay, so I'm sick. Whatever. God, why did I have to clean up my room? If not, I would have not inhaled dust and ah-CHOO!

School

2006-07-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

I am totally neglecting my CIP rep. duties. Seriously, today is Tuesday and I still haven't put up the duty people's names. And also I am a lazy ass who will only clean up depending on my mood.
Today was a bore. Seriously.

Madrasah

2006-07-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

I arrived at Huda an hour late, ready to get scolding and everything only to find that Sabrina was there today! I have friend today. So I lazied around, did what I have to do and soon it was 12 nn. So blah blah blah. ate. Teacher Mariati and Wahida did not recognise me from behind and lesson start. First period was a bore yet again. Sorry ayah. Teacher Ju was talking bout marraige again. Fogot to do hw....
Then had Arabic. Teacher Tarek should not be a teacher. Last week he showed his middle finger to the boys, indirectly of course but they did deserve it. This week he was one big nenek kaypoh. Aishah whispered something to me about his shirt being torn or what that he did not need to button it and he was like " Aishahtu! You shouldn't gossip."
!!!!!!!
Like what the hell?! I mean I totally covered her by giving some escuse that she was wishing me Happy Birthday which caused me more embarassment. He was like " So you'll be 16" and Faruq just had to come in and say that I was going to turn 15. Like !!!!!
He did not need to do that. Putting people down. Seriously, there ought to be a law. i still remeber during the camp, when we all stayed up late playing I never, he had said " I never had a crush on me (Faruq Hashim)" !!!!
Like so ego! I have never met a person that bad...well actually he's okay just stuck up. Oops! If he ever reads this, which I doubt, don't take this too hard. You have very average looks and have flab too. Ahhh..glad thats off my chest.

Today, I went to the library and I found the Sarrah Manning books I was dying to find!!!! And guess who I met at the library. Sarah and Ali!! Sarali!! We sat at the small seats and were freezing from the air-con. We talked about crap and gossip Until I finally managed to unglue my ass from the oh-so-comfortable chair and amble home.
Went to Whitesands to get my sis a b-day prezzie which is tmr. Okay bought Mango ice from the bubble tea shop on the way home. I love Mango.
Sarah and Kirin were so mean today. They know what they did. Buat aku malu saje...

My Hidden War

2006-07-16T17:16:00.000+08:00

My life is currently like still water - boring and dull. Seriously. On Friday, it was half-day, and I went to Bugis with Kirin and Rahimah. All we did was to circle the place and in the end I bought this cow paper-weight for Jannah and then we went to Heartland Mall where there we did the same thing and we went to Popular and I bought some nice stripped wrapping paper. Then I went home. Boring.
Actually to tell you the truth, I had no mood at first to go to these places. I was feeling moody and down cos of a few things. Its also because whenever i see him I feel so down, depressed and moody. If people pay close attention, they would notice how quiet I get when they talk about him. The truth is, i am still crushed. I don't understand why he hates me. Am I that hate-able? I still like him but am trying desperately to forget but the more I try, the opposite happens. Seriously, this is getting out of hand. I must fight this.

Lost

2006-07-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

Nowdays I feel so lost. I spent yesterday crying over old songs and I don't know why. Yes, they were sentimental but why. I'm probably tired as I slept on my way home and I hardly do that!! I have to forget, please. It is bothering me again...

A blessing

2006-07-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

I don't know what happened today but I was quite lucky today. I found CD's which I lost quite a while ago in my mom's room as she had hid them from me. I remember being quite sad over it when I was sec 1 but now I've found it back again I dunno what to say. I'm overjoyed that my Hilary Duff collection is back with me but why do I feel so empty still. I guess it wasn't everything then or now.
Today, I finished reading Nicholas Sparks 'The Notebook'. It was so romantic and moving and tearful for me. I can't believe I cried so much over the book. It was more tears than when I read "Rosie Dunne'. More than when I watch Hindi Movies. Omg! This book is to die for, u have to read it. I must look for the movie with Rachel McAdams.

Youth day

2006-07-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

Wow! Today is supposed to be a celebration of youth but I feel weak and frail today. Why am I always so weak nowdays. This is so unlike me. I start to cry more over random things, eg stories bla bla bla. Then I get frequent stomachaches/cramps. Now I feel quesy and my hands are shaking. Why. Am I not eating well or what?

Titleless

2006-06-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

Okay so lately I've been emotional. So what? okay fine, I cry much more than I usually do but I start to remember funny things. Well actually something I wanted to forget. Forever but I can't cos it grows harder day by day. Just seeing his face makes my heart ache. I know how much he hates me, it hurts m eso. Why?! Why, does he hate me. What have I done wrong? I sometimes wonder.
I guess my feelings for him just haven't faded. I just can't believe thatI thought so much about it today. I was as if something was twisting my heart each time I thought of it. Why can't I forget. I tried so hard too. I guess if you try to hard, the opposite would just happen

Another boring day...

2006-06-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

Well, today seemed kinda slow for me. Spent the day reading and reading and, oh yes, reading. Not to mention the household chores I left unfinished. None of my homework are done and I can't remember the last time i picked up a pen to write a sentence, whatmore an equation.
Seriously, I am bloody slacking here, not to mention I was not feeling well this afternoon so I slept for like more than two bloody hours which is unlike me to sleep for so bloody long. And it was just because of my weak and sensitive stomach. Again. All just because I indulged way more than what I was supposed to.
I never got any ironing done. Even the few pieces I managed to do was done ever so reluctantly on my part. I guess that is the reason why I accidentally burnt my father's shirt while ironing it. Shh..I haven't told him, whatmore when it is one of the shirts he so frequently wears.
This morning, my mother was going on how I should read more Malay books such as the ones she loves to read. Books by Khadijah Hashim, if I am not wrong. Okay so my marks for Malay dropped drastically and I am not too proud of it but I don't know if I can do books. Maybe I shall try. If I don't like, I shall stop.
Lately I've been bloody lazy. I'm not being quite myself. I am too happy at times and even my sister commented on it asking if I were okay or not. I don't know. my mother said I was emotionly unstable and that's why my mens is a bit late. Well, maybe that is it. Can't be anything else can't it. I've been staying at home everyday for the holidays. Wait, maybe that is it! The fact that I was cooped up here at home has made me a bit mad. I'm starting to act like a bimbo at times, the worst part is, I don't really mind it. Okay, deep breaths. Maybe I shouldn't think too deep of the matter.

A new blog

2006-06-15T10:20:00.000+08:00

I have created a new blog for a reason. Privacy. I wish for very little people to know of this site as I feel that this is some sort of place to express my feelings openly.
I am going to be very honest and open in this blog so if you happen to stumble upon it, read if interested but I won't care cos I might not know you. Do not curse what I write on this site as it none of your buisness whatsoever.